The Testimony of a Broken Girl

There's a girl in the corner.

She's broken and crying.

When asked if she's okay,

she says "yes," but she's lying.

Actually she's just tired,

tired of feeling alone,

tired of being broken,

and feeling left on her own.

Although she grew up in a family

that showed her great love and affection,

she never thought she was beautiful

when she looked at her reflection.

She wanted to feel beautiful,

not ugly and rejected.

All she ever wanted was

to be loved and accepted.

So she looked for love,

but in all the wrong places.

Once a full heart now being replaced

by blank spaces.

She was chained, she felt dead

like a skeleton of her old self.

She wanted to cry out

to anyone for help.

She was ashamed, insecure, and scared.

She didn't know what to do.

She would do anything to feel accepted

and loved if she needed to.

So she did things she knew were wrong.

She looked for love, but found lust.

In the end when she was caught,

she turned into a girl no one could trust.

Alone in her room at night

she'd be in tears

thinking about how things had gotten

so bad in a matter of years.

She was in pain, but hid it with

a fake smile so no one could see.

This is the testimony of a broken girl

that was once me.

I looked for love

in all the wrong places

I have a full heart now

that was once filled with empty spaces.

Now I found a love

that's eternal and unbreakable.

I found help in someone

who is forever unshakeable.

I grew up in church and always

assumed I was a Christian,

but I often doubted Him

and gave in to suspicion.

Now I found God's love in much

greater than "love" from a boy

because through God is where

I always find joy.

I will admit that I am not

exactly where I'd like to be,

but thank you God

for setting me free.